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\u201cHow would you feel if people were really nice, and then, suddenly, on a dime\u201d\u2014she snapped her fingers\u2014\u201cthey turn on you?\u201d Duvall told the New York Times<\/em> earlier this year about her retreat from public life. \u201cYou would never believe it unless it happens to you. That\u2019s why you get hurt, because you can\u2019t really believe it\u2019s true.\u201d<\/p>\n Shelley Duvall was unforgettable. She was particular. She was a beauty. But she was those things as a 20-something star and<\/em> as a 75-year-old survivor of the Hollywood machine.<\/p>\n What are the photos I hope show up at my funeral? The ones where I\u2019m young and hot? Isn\u2019t that kind of how I still think of myself, even though a surprising glimpse in the mirror tells a different story? I can think of many photos from my youth I\u2019d like to be remembered by\u2014there\u2019s one portrait in particular my daughter shared to her Instagram story just last week with the caption \u201cgot it from my mama,\u201d and you know I gleefully reshared it. But just those photos wouldn\u2019t tell the whole story. The me as I was as a new mom, nursing my baby, the me now, gamely trying a two-piece at the beach for the first time in 15 years and feeling ridiculous but saltily free, the me, I hope, of 40 years from now, with a face I can\u2019t imagine.<\/p>\n \u201cMy dear, sweet, wonderful life partner and friend left us. Too much suffering lately, now she\u2019s free,\u201d Dan Gilroy, Duvall\u2019s partner since 1989, said of her death. I think of all the photos he surely has of his love, all the moments captured between the days when we celebrated Duvall for being a \u201csaucer-eyed, rail-thin waif\u201d and the day, decades later, when she had to leave him.<\/p>\n \u201cFly away, beautiful Shelley,\u201d he said.<\/p>\n There are some phenomenal public photos of Duvall in the last years of her life; The Hollywood Reporter<\/em> made some portraits of the actress against the backdrop of her home for the last 40 or so years, the Texas hill country. But the one I love most is in that Times<\/em> profile: Duvall is looking over her shoulder, straight at the viewer. Her gray hair is swooped into a messy topknot secured with multiple scrunchies, her face is lined and bare, and her eyes are huge and clear. She looks like a 74-year-old woman. She looks aged. She looks intelligent, a little weary, but like she might be about to laugh, like she\u2019s in on a joke. She looks like herself.<\/p>\n<\/div>\n\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":" \u201cHow would you feel if people were really nice, and then, suddenly, on a dime\u201d\u2014she snapped her fingers\u2014\u201cthey turn on<\/p>\n","protected":false},"author":3,"featured_media":18372,"comment_status":"open","ping_status":"open","sticky":false,"template":"","format":"standard","meta":{"_coblocks_attr":"","_coblocks_dimensions":"","_coblocks_responsive_height":"","_coblocks_accordion_ie_support":"","footnotes":""},"categories":[17],"tags":[],"class_list":["post-18371","post","type-post","status-publish","format-standard","has-post-thumbnail","hentry","category-beauty"],"_links":{"self":[{"href":"https:\/\/veefind.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/18371","targetHints":{"allow":["GET"]}}],"collection":[{"href":"https:\/\/veefind.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts"}],"about":[{"href":"https:\/\/veefind.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/types\/post"}],"author":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/veefind.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/users\/3"}],"replies":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/veefind.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/comments?post=18371"}],"version-history":[{"count":0,"href":"https:\/\/veefind.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/posts\/18371\/revisions"}],"wp:featuredmedia":[{"embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/veefind.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media\/18372"}],"wp:attachment":[{"href":"https:\/\/veefind.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/media?parent=18371"}],"wp:term":[{"taxonomy":"category","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/veefind.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/categories?post=18371"},{"taxonomy":"post_tag","embeddable":true,"href":"https:\/\/veefind.com\/wp-json\/wp\/v2\/tags?post=18371"}],"curies":[{"name":"wp","href":"https:\/\/api.w.org\/{rel}","templated":true}]}}